kabuangan!! i used to want to have everything pronto! not realizing that i am depriving myself of the sweet reward patience offers. take for example my sister. I always find her waiting and just accepting things as they are. I saw it as a weakness and an unnecessary act of martyrdom. But the moment her requests are granted, Man! it's soooooooo amazing that i almost convinced myself to do what she does.
But one thing im very sure about myself is my hard-headedness. I am so stubborn. The type that will make you want to do crazy things like eat your hair or bang your head against the wall. I can say no without batting an eyelash. You can talk til the brick walls cry but i can remain unmoved. That's why HE decided to teach me a lesson BIG time.
It took 2 Major lessons in the school of life and several electives and crash courses to make me realize how wrong i was. Those two major lessons almost destroyed me but I chose not to be destroyed. (I told you I was hard headed right) hmmmm..Am I making any sense? Well anyway going back to my post's title..delayed gratification..I'm finally taking baby steps toward the mastery of this art. I am now experiencing the first fruits of my garden of mistakes that miraculously yielded good tasting results. I appreciate the end of a story that I've painstakingly woven under HIs guidance. I have learned patience..I used to tell myself that "Patience is a virtue..I don't have."
It's amazing how He can make a masterpiece out of the mess I've created for myself. I have yet to learn how to soften my HARD ROCK head..ROCK HARD whatever..but i'm enjoying myself in this school. I don't want to graduate yet.
So dear, have patience with me..I'm still a work in progress.
:)
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