"these things i'll never say"

you always see me as you wish but never even bother to look into the rest.
you see all the nice things and say all the great things but never really saw what's real.
i sailed beside you through your quest but halfway through i left. you never seem to sense my presence. so my absence will make no difference.

i tried to see the best in you and overlooked the flaws. i forgave your shortcomings and believed you without a doubt. i gave my trust along with my heart but you didn't even lift a finger.
i took my heart back and pocketed my trust. seems you didn't want them so i might as well step back.

so now alone with my thoughts i bare my heart certain that noone would see but me.
when you looked my way, i melted.
when you talked to me, i floated.
when you smiled at me, i died.
you only have to call me once, and i'll be there at once.
my heart was willing but my mind was battling.
but in the end you made your choice and with my heart you took my voice.

so my heart remains with you but these feelings will stay with me
because they will remain as thoughts
for these things i'll never say.